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Anjani Siegrist

The Secret Life of Cups

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The cup patiently holds empty space while longing to be filled. The cup sits, restful and attractive. Yet deeply yearns to be held in strong hands and embraced by eager lips of the thirsty.

The filler of the cup is decisive in knowing what to drink. Sometimes the drink is not available and the filler must journey through treacherous terrain to obtain the soul satisfying elixir. The filler boldly stands up to any obstacle to obtain the most suitable drink to fill the cup. The drink unifies the filler and the cup.

When approaching the cup, the filler shows respect knowing that it is a great honor to be in the presence of such a miraculous creation as a cup. The filler pauses for a moment to appreciate the cup’s power and beauty.

The filler makes penetrating eye contact and connects energetically with the cup. Lovingly embracing every curve and edge with simultaneous gratitude and desire. The cup is receptive with an alluring pressure that draws the filler forth.

With firm yet gentle hands, the filler holds and slowly fills the cup with the unifying elixir. The cup receives the drink with a softening grace. The filler presses the cup to lips, and slowly sips, remembering that this could be the last drink. The filler pays attention to every detail as the drink moves into its new space. From source, to cup, to filler, the elixir permeates all.

The filler knows to let the cosmic mixing of energy occur to completion, so continues to hold the cup even when the drinking is done. The cup’s space vortex is spinning magical webs of bliss that nestle into both filler and cup. Both are deeply nourished and loved.

The End.

Contemplation:

How are you the cup?

How are you the drink?

How are you the filler?

How are you all simultaneously?

Fear of Intimacy: Message From a Man

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Why do you protect yourself from intimacy?
“As the representative for the delegation of men on earth, I would first like to start off by saying “We’re sorry.”
Secondly, given the enviable task of addressing how we would protect ourselves if given the chance to grow an intimate relationship with you, many thoughts came to mind.
With endless permutation of factors that could arise, rather I focused on three lenses of defense: The view of the man in pursuit, an overall societal view, and your divinity through said man’s eye.
For men there is a consistent call towards a fear of intimacy in relationships. Be it letting ones guard down, opening to vulnerability, or struggling to become physically and emotionally adjacent. As humans, we have torrid pasts that may consist of trauma in relationships from family or intimate partners. Growing up with absentee parents, losing a loved one at an early age, or being the victim of an abusive household. Subconsciously we can be drawn to relationships where spouses will allow or mirror this pattern of abuse.
When you get “iced out” after a moment of intimacy, it is simply the easier option built through avoidance mentality. It is a defense mechanism built in to eschew doing the real work required to be intimate with you. Through fear of rejection, unhealthy self reliance to meet all of your own needs is created. Life as a zero sum game. If you open your heart fully, it is too risky for what you would lose.
Addiction to new relationships is also a possibility as there might be someone or something just a little more perfect. For most men sex and intimacy are not mutually exclusive. Sex can be performed without looking in the mirror at our own frustration, regret, sadness, depression, anger, and remorse. Intimacy can not.
The narrative that has the most subliminal impact on men is that of our societal culture. Patriarchy is baked into the bread of our social order, which immediately puts your presence as a threat to our norms. Success and ultimately happiness are measuring sticks that in our civilization are proportional to institutionalized standards. First you get the power, then you get the money, then you get the women. Trophy wife, nice house, fast cars.
What us men fail to realize, however, is that these measuring sticks of happiness are built in a society that gave us a predesigned lifestyle. In a vapid culture of unnecessary possessions and broken sexual expression, the fallout is devastating. Massive increases in diagnosis of depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, schizophrenia, and anxiety all fall under the umbrella of social phobias and disorders that cripple intimacy. Fear of failure in interpersonal relationships and meeting the high need structure of emotional inexperience fuels low motivation and self worth.
And how do we cope with these mechanisms? Developing addictions: drugs, sex, lying and cheating. Measuring up to standards set by a society that emasculates self introspection slogs us toward this predesigned lifestyle.
Finally the last lens in which we build protection around surrendering to intimacy, the male view of you Anjani.
Your robust desire for vitality, embracing the fullness of the life you live, and the palpable aura that projects.
Mistakenly taking your fervor for growth and knowledge, as pressure that you want to change him.
You are an ambitious, entrepreneurial, intelligent, strong minded beautiful woman who shatters the mold of the traditional male breadwinner. The strength you bring to your practice, career, and family shows a love so deep, it can be frightening. “Brain orgasm dripping dopamine all over my philosophical matters.” Igniting this phoenix of desire is fueled through intellectual stimulation, which is something that must be cultivated and nurtured with intense passion.
Coming across as an expert in the art of sexuality is intimidating for men. As a Tantrica, your comfort in your own body can cultivate doubt and body issues of ours. Building up to feelings of inadequacy or performance anxiety, your ownership of your power through self reflection is daunting.
In the nethermost moments of intimacy, the body creates natural potent drugs such as dopamine, opioids, and oxytocin that create physical and mental attachment through pheromones. I have yet to meet another woman more in touch, and in control, of her body and its power. Through the physical experience, or the emotions conjured after, the divine fragrance of your essence is a faculty most men are unequipped to handle.
The value hierarchy men seek is perfection, while women seek wholeness. The corresponding acknowledgement and reaction in our life practice shows the enduring entity of these reflections.”


– M

 

The Making of a Man

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We taught boys not to cry, toughen up, and take control. When boys are little, they are given footballs and blue clothing. When he hits his sibling, we say, “boys will be boys.” The bedtime stories and childhood mythology repeatedly points boys to be the hero and save the helpless girl. He carries her off to his kingdom and gives her a better life where he reigns as king.

When he is in puberty, he is taught that he is different and turning into a man. He is taught to watch out for the evil tricks that girls will do to manipulate him. Because after all, every woman needs a man to rescue and protect her and will do anything in her power to make that happen.

When he gets hurt, he is told to shake it off and is taught “don’t let them see you cry.” Any signs of weakness are strictly forbidden.

In early adulthood, he is expected to take charge of his life, get a career to make a lot of money. He should find a beautiful woman to have a family with and carry on his name by having at least one son. The lucky woman he gets should laugh at his jokes, let him make the important decisions and not question his authority. Because after all, he is the man.

This is an oversimplification … or is it?

When we see the bigger picture and the cycles humanity takes in assigning meaning to life, there is no way to hate any group of beings. Patriarchy is not a man’s issue, it is not one-sided and it was not created by itself. The polarity of mother/father has it’s plus and minus points in the history of humanity. We all have benefited and suffered by the hand of this polarity.

I see men as a reflection of myself. I love myself. Why would I not love men?

I have been molested, shot at, beaten, thrown out of a moving vehicle, cheated on and raped by men. In my pain and agony over these events, I see the pain and agony of the ones who acted out their rage and feelings of hopelessness. The patriarchy that abused and disempowered women simultaneously abused and disempowered men by taking away their range of expression and teaching them to take power over life in order to survive.

Science and religion were created to control and dominate nature.

Men don’t want to hurt women. They want to embrace and be embraced by women. They want to connect with the part of themselves that is woman. In merging with a woman, there is a sense of love and acceptance of this womb energy that has been silenced by patriarchy.

“Don’t speak unless spoken to.”

We have been disenfranchised from our own vital power and sexuality. We have been raised to believe that the opposites sex has something we need and cannot provide for ourselves. We act out of desperation to have those needs met.

Get intimate with reality. Be fully present for what is arising in you before your mind starts mansplaining and narrating the stories. Own your part in creating our current collective reality. Men are doing exactly what we have expected them to do. Drop the expectations and allow them to show up as they are.

When we become intimate with reality, we know beyond a shadow of a doubt, we all have hurt each other trying to get something we never lost. Build yourself a bridge to other side and befriend the one you fear. S/he wants to be seen. 

Intimacy as Art

Ancient Spiral of Death and Birth

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Pure consciousness merges with matrilineal descendants to create the embodied fractal that is me. DNA active. Chakras open. I am whole and complete. Ancestral wisdom pulsing through my veins. The breath of the One Breath breathes with me.

My flowing river of heart blood not separate from the divine rhythm of the God/dess. This river connects all daughters, mothers and grandmothers in an unending spiral of death and birth. My blood and sexual energy flow synchronistically as a vital messenger between the realms of life and death. 


Body-mind-energy releases to re-boot. I no longer feel the need to argue and second guess the innate wisdom of my body temple. My subtle energy and physical pathways are sanctified. Attachment to meanings I assigned to stories are cleansed by blood of the circle of grandmothers. There is pain and pleasure in surrendering to this ancient cycle.


I give thanks to my guides and teachers seen and unseen for grounding support on my evolutionary adventure. I honor and give thanks to the immense power in the flow of my blood.

 

 

Diaries of a Main Chick

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We love and rage in equal and monumental proportions. No half-steppin. Except when it comes to hidden truth.

Waves of opiates hit like oceans of pleasure and tsunamis of pain. Just when I can’t take any more, you tell me you’ve changed. And you did. For a while.

I want to believe my illusion. But …

You want to love many women just a little. I want to experience the depth of intimacy beyond human concepts of time, bodies and bliss. My pot is simmering. Stewing. Cosmic soul soup been steeped in wisdom and held in the center.

You keep serving up portions of my soup to the women you take naps with along your bohemian journey as the Gypsy King. Condoms missing from the night stand after that one time … where did they go? They used themselves? Now you live alone. No roommate to blame this time.

I don’t feel attractive. My inner sense of self has been crushed and destroyed. With your every love affair, fling and “just a friend” relationships.

Truth is, this has been our secret. You say you love me. I used to wish it were true. Love doesn’t need it’s light to be obstructed like this.

You tell me you want me. I know you do. I am delicious. I tend my temple of divine goddess embodiment like no other woman I know. My skin is soft like cocoa butter rose petals. I taste like jungle vines after new rain. My temple is always fresh. Warm. Inviting. Seduction in the way I walk, enchantment in my smile, love in the way I listen, look …

I definitely don’t want to put you down. You are glorious and I see you as God.

We all have neurotic addictions and ancestral distortions on our view of reality. We are here to elevate and see it all. Not to perpetuate the “sins of our mothers and fathers.” We are NOW. NEW. PRANAV.

Serendipity leads us to where we need to bee and to see what we need to see. Not always pleasant but guaranteed to be real. The obstruction to my view falls

down

and I see what I am to you.

Your beautiful, radiant object.

Never the only one.

Just the main one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

How My Yoga Teacher Taught Me Love

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Like the sound made without the striking of two things, my love is pure, attuned with the source and knows no opposite. 

I have had many teachers throughout my life but one who illuminated my shadows around male/female relationships. He made me question everything I knew about how to engage with the opposite sex and taught me the meaning of divine love. Not through romance but by the example of his presence.

It was 11:30 and brunch was almost over. I sat down on the floor of the dining hall and was served the usual rice and curry. I begin to eat with my right hand and observe the people moving about. My gaze was directed to a man dressed in all yellow with his back to me. I watched as he served food out of a huge steel pot into to plates of students of the ashram. His movements were ethereal and he seemed to be floating on air. His skin had a radiant brown glow and his hair was lustrous. The moment I saw him, my heart jumped into my belly. The overwhelming butterfly sensation almost made me burst into giggles. We didn’t make eye contact and I soon left the dining hall. For the rest of the day, my mind returned to this beautiful and mysterious man.

A few days went by before I saw him again. He was teaching a yoga class to the guests of the ashram where I was taking a teacher training course. I was too shy to go near the yoga hall so kept a safe distance to avoid my awkward feelings. I soon learned that he was a  brahmacharya and was visiting the ashram to assist with teaching. I wanted to know more about him but couldn’t bring myself to approach him. One night before evening satsang, I was sitting in a temple practicing meditation. Through the corner of my eye, I noticed a man watching me through the temple window. It was him! I thought, “He must be interested in me!”

My mental programming was set to a view of western mating rituals that had zero foundation in reality. 

That evening after satsang, he came up to me and begin to speak. I almost fainted. Rather than speaking what my habituated mind was expecting to hear, he explained to me about my sitting posture he observed through the temple window. He recommended that I use the provided rice sacks to sit upon to help with comfort and energy movements in my body. As he spoke, it was as if God Himself were speaking to me.

I told a friend of mine, “I think he loves me!” She replied, “Yes. He does love you. Just not in the way you think.” 

Over the next month, I found ways to place myself in his line of movement in places he would be, which was not hard since we were living in the same ashram. I relished every opportunity to hear him speak and to see the light in his eyes. I finally decided to write about the feelings that were coming up for me. It turned out that there was nothing sexual there. My desire was only to know him. To be intimate through gazing into his eyes and receiving his wisdom. It was a turning point in what I considered to be worthwhile interaction between myself and another human being.

Over the years, I have spoke to him many times over the phone, corresponded through email and have even went back to India to assist him in a yoga teacher training course. The feeling that his presence invokes 9 years later is that of electrifying connection with my pure essence nature. He makes me want to be more of myself. To find new ways to express love and appreciation. I honor him as I honor myself which is how I honor the God/dess in all.

I thought I fell in love with my yoga teacher. It turns out, I fell in love with the One who was always at the core of my being.

Soul Healing

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“The soul is the birthless, deathless, changeless part of us. The part of us that looks out from behind our eyes and has no form. The soul is infinite so there is no in or out of it. It is everywhere. There’s no place that it is not.” -Wayne Dyer

Here are a few definitions from cosmic anatomy:

  • Infinite Soul- the eternal and divine light that was never created and will never be destroyed.
  • Individual Soul- the way that eternal light expresses itself through your bodymind. This reminds me of a filtration process. The eternal light gets squeezed through your bodymind (ego included) and comes out as your individual flavor of the eternal.
  • Ego- the part of you that believes it is separate from everything and everyone. Ego is like a bunch of ideas tied together to form a stream of “I.” Ego literally means identity maker.

All parts of you are equally valid and not separate although some beliefs (thoughts that have become mental constructs) that you formulated about yourself and the world around you may not be in alignment with truth. Truth here being something that is factual in all times, places and spaces regardless of who perceives it. Many beliefs are formed in the preverbal stage of life. What we experience and perhaps what is passed down through DNA can shape our belief structure. Can DNA assist the human in formulating beliefs? Bruce Lipton says that DNA does influence our beliefs and also our beliefs can influence our DNA.

Your soul is the part of you that is eternal. If anything needs healing, it is your thoughts and your belief in your thoughts.

Without a doubt, beliefs that are based on preverbal and early childhood experiences are not a sturdy foundation for adult life. Doing some inquiry into the nature of your mental processes will help in dissolving layers of unstable thought patterns and belief systems. Meditation is an amazing tool as well as questioning your foundational mental constructs.

Soul Retrieval in Shamanism

In neo-shamanism, there is a technique called soul retrieval. I had a series of these from a local shamanic practitioner who I was studying with in 2014. From my perspective, she did psychic work and then talked to me about what she observed in my field. Then I had new choices to make given this new perspective. This was truly amazing and I recommend this if you have experienced trauma or the term “soul healing” sounds enticing to you. In soul retrieval, you are going to (perhaps) an unconscious place in your psyche and remembering, recapitulating, or recognizing a moment where you lost power. In going back to that place, you can use your current self (with assistance from your guides and the shaman) to gather up energy in many different ways.

Ross Heaven has a great book that teaches more techniques beyond soul retrieval and got me to explore more of my unconscious mind. Parts of my psyche were still attempting to understand and integrate traumatic experiences. Relationships with other people, food, drinks, and other parts of my daily life had become the integration playground. By bringing my awareness to these places and allowing energy to move, I experience a surge of power as my own energy gets recirculated. When you do this work, you may be enticed by the stories around the stagnate energy. Be with the raw energy, not the story. Any story that needs to be unveiled will be without your grasping. Allow energy to flow.

To call this or any other work soul healing would imply that the soul is damaged, lost or somehow imperfect and that is just not possible. Your relationship between your ego and soul may benefit from some nurturing and deeper inquiry into their true essence, but your soul will remain with you, stainless and whole.

Some people are not going to like this because the exploitation of vulnerable people pays their bills. Others, because they have built up an idea that they can’t get better because their soul is somehow flawed and have become accustom to a helpless state of victimhood. I have to break this illusion by declaring that SOULS ARE NOT FLAWED.

“Michelangelo said when he got a statue that he would go to the quarry and get a big piece of marble and the way he imagined it, God had already created the statue and his job was just to get rid of the excess marble. So that’s what we’re like. Inside is the being that God has already created. Some call it the Christ, the Buddha mind, the Shekinah, the light, the soul. And our job is to get rid of this excess, useless fear, thought forms of the world that actually hide the light of the soul.” Marianne Williamson

Reiki Healing for Everyone

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What is Reiki?

Reiki is comprised of two Japanese words, rei and ki.

Rei: meaning God, Source, Divine

Ki: meaning energy, power, force

The Universal Life Force Energy (ULFE) is honored and respected in many cultures. Here is a list of names that ULFE is referred to from {http://www.andovertherapies.com/what-is-universal-life-force-energy}

Universal Life Force Energy has many different names:

  • In Japan the energy is called Ki, it’s from this word that Reiki is named;
  • Some of the Native Americans call the manifestation of divine spirit in living beings life force energy, or divine breath; known as ni in Lakota and nilch’i in Navajo or some simply call it medicine;
  • Some Egyptians called it Sekhem and, Hai- Djerit;
  • The Taoists call it Chi (Qi) and are able to chart its movement through the body;
  • Indian yoga adepts call it Prana and used it for charting the course of energy through the body;
  • Christians refer to it as the “Light” or “Holy Ghost”;
  • Russian researchers refer to it as Bio-Plasmic Energy;
  • This energy is also known as “Mana” in Polynesia, “Ruach” in Hebrew and “Baraka” in Islamic Countries;

 

Learning how to access and use this energy is your birthright. Upon discovery of this energy, you will gain access to more of your innate power. Reiki is for everyone, not just “healers” and will improve your life when acknowledged and used. My goal in sharing this material is greater acceptance of inner power in relationship to the outer power. This leads to harmony and increased awareness of how to interact with unseen energy and the elephants in the room.

Before working with Reiki or Universal Energy:

You can ask Reiki to flow through you whenever and wherever you need a boost.  By you lighting up with this healing energy, you become more dynamic in all situations you encounter. Remember to adhere to and respect boundaries before sending or directing this powerful energy to someone or something.  Always get consent. 

How can you get consent from someone or something that you cannot verbally communicate with? 

Connect with it mentally or with your felt sense.  Ask it on the unseen realm.  This is easier to do than it is to explain.  The way I have explained this to my children is like this: Before we pick a flower, rock, feather, or leaves from a tree, we ask permission.  Ask and then be open to the first impression you get.  Soon you will understand what is a “no” and what is a “yes.” It is the same thing when we want to send or direct Reiki.  Believe it or not, everyone/thing does not want or need healing.  We all need to go through our own shadows and experience some level of suffering.  When we are ready, healing is standing before us.  Like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, healing is as close as the shoes on our feet and has been with us the whole time.  Think about this in your own life.  How have your greatest challenges been part of your evolution?  How would your life be different had you been “saved” or somehow removed from your challenges?  I ask you just to look at these things and begin to see the beauty in your continued wholeness. When working with yourself and others, honor the process and allow the natural unfoldment.  One of my best teachers used to repeat constantly, “Be where you are.” Do not try to rush your evolution or expansion of consciousness.  Do not rush others. Honor the self as a Divine Master. 

What is the difference between “be where you are” and being “lazy”? 

When there is a call, you answer. If the call doesn’t make sense, you seek guidance.  Dig deeper and take action when you are called to.  Move on when there is completion.  If there is a call and you just sit on the couch and pretend that you don’t hear it, this is what I would consider being lazy.  Everyone is entitled to making their own choice in this.  If your friend, lover, family member is being lazy … so what.  That is their choice.  You are totally entitled to just sit on the couch sometimes, too!  Expansion and evolution are inevitable.  What we do to increase our awareness and openness to this expansion is 100% our own choice and free will.

Starting a session:

I always do a grounding and clearing practice before starting (pretty much) everything I do. I visualize some variation of connecting with the above and the below which looks something like this:

My spine grows roots into the heart of the Earth and the crown of my head grows energetic branches that connect with the heart of the galactic core/cosmos.  As I breathe; inhalation connect to Earth all the way up to the sky and filling up with Universal Life-Force Energy. Exhalation, ULF Energy sweeps through my Auric Field.  Now I am running clear ULF Energy and can send this energy through my hands for personal use or to offer to another.  I place my two hands in prayer position at my chest.  My Reiki invocation sounds something like this: “Reiki Energy Flow, turn on, activate. Thank you for allowing me to access and channel this energy for the best and highest good of ____________ (whoever or whatever I am working with).” I almost always invite my personal spirit guides and teachers into my field when I work. At the bare minimum, I call on my higher-self, healing assistants, and the natural elements of creation.

Depending on who I am working with, I may involve them in participating in grounding and clearing. I will guide them on a variation of the tree visualization in sync with their own breathing.  After they clear away any less organized energy through this phase of the session, energetic density or “blockages” are easier to pick up on. Sometimes, people don’t want to participate in this process and that is totally fine.  Learning discernment in whether to involve your client and at what level will come with experience.  At a minimal, guiding them to regulate their breathing is very helpful.  One practice that is helpful is asking them to take a deep breath in and tense up as much of their body as possible.  On a big, over exaggerated exhale, they release all tension and melt into the table, floor, chair, yoga mat, or whatever they are on.

The 3 Pillars of Reiki are covered in depth during the Level II course.  I am covering them here briefly because I find it helpful to get use to using the principle.  Basically:

  •  pillar 1 is how we ground and calm ourselves. 
  • Pillar 2 is asking Reiki to flow or turn on. 
  • Pillar 3 is allowing intuition to guide the treatment. 

Now you are ready to explore energy! There is an actual treatment plan as you are learning to use energy but once you are comfortable and have had some experience, you will listen to your intuition and move in whatever way you are sensing. The textbook plan has you start at the end and scan energy above the person’s body. Once you scan, you will go over each part of the body sending energy into each part being sure not to overlook any area. There is a particular way to hold the hands which feels slightly cupped in order to gather and direct maximum energy. After you have gone over every part, you will spend more time in any one area that you sense a particular calling to. This is communication. Listening to what the body is saying will develop with practice.

Do not over think, or even think at all, if possible!  Practice feeling and allowing.  ULF Energy has supreme intelligence and will do exactly what is best for whatever is receiving it. When you start to think, judge, or otherwise notice your inner critic come in, thank it for wanting to help.  Tell this part of you, “I value your input and continued service in my life.  Right now, we are allowing Reiki to flow and logic is not needed. I will let you know when to come back online.”  This logic and reason part has an important role in your life. If you treat this with respect and honor, you will be more successful in integration on many levels.

If you get “stuck” in a session or feel unsure about what to do, relax.  Refocus your breathing with any of your favorite techniques.  Get out of your way.  Remember that Reiki is doing what it needs to.  Remove your attachment to any expected outcome.  Your job is to hold the space and let Reiki flow.  I personally have many techniques that work for me in different situations of “stuck”.  One of my favorites is calling on Archangel Michael or another Master energy to come into my field of awareness.  Do a little research, experiment and follow your intuition and guidance.

Combing or smoothing aura after self-Reiki.

This step is vital for bringing your session to completion.  During this time, you may thank your guides, angels, beings of light, helpers, teachers, and Reiki guides for assisting you in your healing.

We can close with several optional techniques.  The one I will mention here is combing or smoothing out the auric field.  Place your Reiki activated hands about 6 inches above the physical body starting around the head, hands on either side of the head.  Make a big combing action around their entire body. And bring your hands together at the feet to close.  Be sure to let go of the energy after your session. Some things I do:

  • Thank the client for allowing me to work with them.
  • As I am walking out, I thank my guides and ULFE for their love and support in my work. Respect and Gratitude.
  • I go to the washroom and wash my hands, allowing everything from the session to be released.
  • When the client comes out of the room, I ask them how they feel and give any impressions or follow-on self-care information.

This all will demonstrated in class.

Cleansing your energy body or the energy in your environment after your session is simple.  With intention for clearing, burn sage through the rooms in your space. Leaving a cracked window and open doors for ventilation for smoke and stagnate energy to escape, wave the sage in a circular motion.  Intend for energy to be broken up and leave the space.  You can also wave this sage around your body.  This is a most popular method as sage is easily obtained and the process is pleasant and quick.

Some closing thoughts:

Energy is beyond good and evil.  It is Energy.  How we perceive and what what we do with energy is what matters.  This concept takes time to develop and understand.  Please explore this for yourself. 

For 21 days after your Reiki attunement it is necessary to do self-Reiki. It may be helpful to use a picture with the self-Reiki hand positions and keep it in your office, bedroom, or any place you can devote some time (20 – 30 minutes) to your self-healing practice.  During the 21 days, it is useful to make journal entries after your sessions to note any changes, insights, and energy you notice.  After the 21 days, you may develop a shorter variation to keep utilizing the Reiki self-healing system.

During this 21-day period you to get to know your own energetic signature and discover your patterns.  When working with others, knowing yourself can be a most valuable tool.

 

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Anjani has been practicing the healing arts professionally for over 17 years. She got her first attunement in India in 2008 and practiced regularly for 7 years before getting the level III teachings. In April 2015, Anjani received attunements as level III Master/Teacher of Reiki from Shamanic Practitioner, Katie Weatherup and has been sharing attunements regularly since.

Practical Guide to Your Cosmic Body

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Your Cosmic Body

 

Ayurveda and Yoga

Yoga, union of individual consciousness with Universal Consciousness, is a process of physiological and psychological alchemy. To understand this from an alchemical perspective, we must understand the 3 energies of the doshas and their subtle energies.

You are made of three cosmic forces: vata, pitta, kapha.

  • Vata translates as “the wind” and is the air element.
  • Pitta translates as “the power of digestion” and is the fire element.
  • Kapha translates as “what makes things stick together” and is water held in earth.

You are created with each of these forces in unique combination. Understanding your unique combination is vital in maintaining optimal health of body-mind-spirit. You can find out your combinations by taking the dosha quiz at www.doshaguru.com.

The vital essence of the doshas used in yoga alchemy:

  1. vata essence is prana
  2. pitta essence is tejas
  3. kapha essence is ojas

In yoga practice, we are transforming and bringing balance to the psyche and body. These subtle energies can be defined as:

  1. Prana – primordial life force
  2. Tejas – inner radiance, outer luster
  3. Ojas – primal vigor

These three are interdependent of each other and dance together to create animation, health and vitality in the body. A serious yogi lives a lifestyle that increases and builds the subtle energies rather than depleting them. To do that we start with Ojas.

Ojas: The juice that is created from every function that happens throughout the physical body. Ojas is an actual biological substances in the body rather than just energetic. This is creating immunity and longevity in the body.

 To build ojas:

  1. Diet – using what is right for your constitution.
  2. Tonic herbs – plants that produce soma or substance.
  3. Sexual energy – conscious and regulated discharge of the reproductive fluid.
  4. Sense awareness – conscious maintenance of the sense organs. Much energy is lost here.
  5. Emotional Awareness – This energy is potent and can be used to build or deplete ojas. Bhakti yoga is a means for cultivation of this energy.

When ojas is healthy, like a concentrate of a thousand roses used to make a drop of rose oil, you can use it for tejas.

Tejas: the burning flame of pure intelligence and illumination. This fire burns ignorance.

To build tejas:

  1. Discipline of activities – fasting, walking before dawn, practicing silence or other energy preservation and building self-disciplines will increase determination and tejas.
  2. Mantra repetition – develops inner fire through sound vibration and controlling aimless mind chatter.
  3. Discipline of activities- fasting, waking before dawn, practicing silence or other self-disciplines
  4. Mantra repetition- develops inner fire through sound vibration and controlling aimless mind
  5. Concentration – Focusing on one thing at a time increases inner fire.
  6. Study of knowledge – Knowledge increases intelligence which itself is fire.
  7. Anything that directs your attention, focus, will and determination will increase tejas.

Once ojas and tejas are full, we can tend to prana.

Prana: The primordial life-force and the bridge between individual consciousness and Universal Consciousness.

Prana is made of FIVE types.

  1. Prana- forward moving air, receptivity and nourishment from all pranas in the body. Exhale
  2. Apana- Down and out moving air, moves things out. Inhale
  3. Samana- balancing air, aids digestion and discernment. Pause
  4. Udana- upward moving air, giving self-expression, will and strength.
  5. Vyana- outward moving air, circulation, free flow of everything in the body.

To increase prana:

  • Pranayama- Conscious movement and integration of the vital energies
  • Meditation – Creating more space in the body gives rise to increase in prana. When we are internally cluttered, there is no space. Prana will fill the space, but you must first create the space.
  • Practicing the 4 paths to yoga-
    • Jnana-study
    • Bhakti-emotion, compassion, love
    • Karma- action and service
    • Raja- integration of life and meditation

Energy moves in all directions and the word prana is a cover story for that concept. Like all cover stories, there is more to the story that is not always readily available. I haven’t been to a yoga studio in a while so I am not sure if this is still true, but I used to hear teachers refer to prana as air. Although prana is not air or food, in can be found in air and in food. It is the “etheric double” or the invisible vitality that animates everything. Much like our digestive system, our energy system can only use what it can digest. Yoga asana and breathing practices increase the digestibility of energy and physical matter and are therefore paramount to our health. Here are the 5 pranas:

  1. Prana- forward moving energy, receptivity and nourishment from all pranas in the body. Exhale
  2. Apana- Down and out moving energy, moves things out. Base. Inhale
  3. Samana- balancing energy, aids digestion and discernment as the fire in the belly. Navel. Kumbhaka. Fusion of prana and apana into central channel. When breathe pauses naturally, energy enters the central channel.
  4. Udana- upward rising energy, belching and vomiting, giving self-expression, will and strength. Throat/mouth. Kundalini Shakti can rise up to the crown.
  5. Vyana- outward moving energy, circulation, extension of limbs, free flow of everything in the body. Chest. Kundalini Shakti unites with Kundalini Shiva in the crown and has the capacity to pervade everything in all times and spaces also known as awakening.

What you need to know:

You can connect with the subtle energy of everything in your life.

  1. If you are experiencing decreased overall energy levels: breath and connect with what you consume. Imagine extracting/sharing vitality with all that you are consuming. Visualize energy from above and below you are entering into every pore of your body.
  2. Bowel evacuation troubles: breath and visualize energy moving downward into your sacrum. Imagine that energy grounding you to the Earth below you.
  3. Decision making challenges: breath and visualize energy moving as an inward spiral.
  4. Any challenge with the voice or throat: Inhale a ball of energy into the throat. Hold it there and retain the breath. On your exhale, let sound come out. Any sound that feels naturally arising and wants to come out.
  5. Decreased circulation: Open your arms like you are going to hug someone. Take a breath in and retain the breath. On the exhale bring the hands to the chest. Visualize energy moving from your center chest out in all directions. Repeat.

These are just a few basic examples of ways you can practically work with prana.

Here is a basic breakdown of a place to start with your yoga practice. Yoga asana, or postural yoga, moves the vital energies through the organs and the bodily tissues. It is meant to prepare and strengthen the body for increased levels of energy and the daily challenges every human contends with in life. Yoga assists in the realization of your perfection and unity with Universal Consciousness. The gift of yoga has its roots much deeper than we have been shown in the mainstream. Yoga and Ayurveda are life sciences and are the best path to wholeness I have yet to see.

 

Chakra System

The chakra system has its roots in tantric philosophy and has been made popular in the West by hatha and kundalini yoga. A chakra is a wheel or vortex of energy in the body. Many believe that these centers are controlled by organs that are nearby and that there are colors associated with each energy center. It is my understanding that these ideas and concepts came from westerners who worked with energy when yoga first came to the west. Enough of them agreed that the energy centers in the body were synonymous with certain organs and had certain colors. In India, I received the teachings on chakras void of these ideas and concepts. I feel that there is an original map of the energy in the body and people have perceived that energy in numerous different ways over time. In my experience, the “color” is not seen but felt and the organs nearby aren’t always involved in what the energy is communicating. This is an area for you to explore with an open mind and do your best to not get caught in the mind field traps. I will present the chakra information in the way the you will likely find it (with the colors of the rainbow) with the disclaimer that energy in the body is free to do and be anything. It will communicate in its own way. Our job is to stay connected to our center, or central column, and be open to receive.

Learning to feel a color:

Seeing with your senses is what I call “seeing with my eyes closed.” Energy is subtle at first and can take practice learning to communicate with. Here is a game to play that will increase your sensitivity to feeling a color:

Gather your energy into your central column, your spine, or your midline. Eyes open or closed, breath in and imagine gathering up all of you in energy form.  This can be like seeing all your energy tentacles being retracted into your body and you becoming so full of yourself that all the chaotic energy automatically disengages. [Many people like to exhale “all negative energy.” Truth is, energy is not good/bad. All that you can perceive is your stuff. Integration of this energy will nourish you.] Keep inhaling your energy and on the exhales let everything soften and integrate. Bring your awareness to a pet or someone you know. Ask yourself, “What does this being’s energy feel like in color form?” Let a color arise in your awareness. What does this color feel like? Does it have a texture? How does it smell? What does it taste like? As many questions as you can ask, allow your bodymind to respond. Honor and respect whatever arises as valid information.

  1. First Chakra, Sanskrit name: Muladhara- located at the base of the spine and the sacral plexus, represents Earth element. Bija mantra, LAM and noted as a 4 petaled lotus. Meditation on muladhara helps the practitioner to gain breath and mind control and knowledge of past present and future.

This is the place where Kundalini Shakti, the energy of manifest form, resides. Many people believe this energy needs to be activated or “awakened” for progress in spirituality and healing. But this energy moves as she needs to and does not necessarily need to be activated or awakened. The awakening happens in the right timing. What we can do is prepare the ground and pathways in the body to better accommodate her movements.

  1. Second Chakra, Sanskrit name: Svadhisthana- at genital organs and regenerative organs, represents Water element. Bija mantra, VAM and noted as a 6 petaled lotus. Meditation on this center improves psychic awareness, intuition, and knowledge of astral entities.

The area in the body can be a place of guilt and shame in both men and women. It is a highly energy rich area that often gets over stimulation or avoidance, which is stimulation without movement. It is easy to deplete this chakra and feel burned out or have excessive amounts of energy and feel anxious. Taking salt water baths or spending time near natural bodies of water can be extremely helpful in balancing this area. Eating foods that help to balance and maintain water metabolism such as celery, watermelon, grapes, cucumber and other juicy plants can be advantageous in efforts to bring harmony.

  1. Third Chakra, Sanskrit name: Manipura- navel region at solar plexus. Energy is fiery (tejas) and the name Manipura roughly translates to lustrous gem. The bija mantra is RAM and there are 10 lotus petals. Meditation here gives inner strength, powers of discernment, freedom from disease and fear.

Inner will power and ego identification are predominating here. There will be a strong sense of self with firm yet loving boundaries. Powerful dictators and “pushover” people are deficient in this area. When manipura is strong, there is no need to control or have power over others. The person will stand up for themselves and eventually be so centered that the need to stand up for oneself diminishes. Many people in spiritual communities have weak ego identification largely due to the belief that ego is bad. This can lead to long-term problems which can be remedied though understanding and acceptance of the egoic nature and its rightful place in a human life.

  1. Fourth Chakra, Sanskrit name: Anahata- heart region at cardiac plexus. Energy is that of air and the name translates as unstruck, referring to the sound that comes without striking. The lotus has 12 petals and it’s bija mantra is YAM. Meditation here opens powers of universal love, forgiveness and direct realization of the cosmic connection between inner and outer as one.

The heart center easily becomes burdened by belief that love and compassion are generated here. The heart is more like a motor than a container for love and compassion. The heart can integrate and move universal love, acceptance, forgiveness throughout the entire body while the chakra integrates and acts on the cosmic plane. When the heart chakra is healthy, there is equality in all beings and acceptance is reflected inside and out.

  1. Fifth Chakra, Sanskrit name: Vishudda- throat region at laryngeal plexus. The energy here is that of space, it is a 16 petal lotus and its bija mantra HAM. Meditation here connects the individual to the Infinite.

I call this chakra the cosmic cave of wonders. It is here that a great merging of past, present, future happens and many psychic experiences can unfold. Although, this can happen anywhere in the body, the throat is the bridge between the earth process of body mechanics and the workings of the magical and mysterious following two chakras.

  1. Sixth Chakra, Sanskrit name: Ajna- between eyebrows at the nerve plexus of the sympathetic nervous system that lies on each side of the sella turcica, Turkish saddle, or seat of the pituitary gland. This chakra has 2 petals and its bija mantra is OM. Meditation on this chakra gives connection to higher intelligence, great inner and outer sight, and strong intuitive powers.

The red portion is the seat that holds the pituitary gland.

I call this the 1st Eye and practice turning my eyes inward which allows the practitioner to look within while the physical eyes are closed. Many of the modern foods and technology are harmful to this center. Some notables are fluoride in tap water, soda, artificial lighting, and looking at screens. Some healing things for this center are, raw cacao, drinking pure water, craniosacral therapy, using crystals (fluorite is a good one), doing eye exercises, practicing intuitive games, and spending time out in nature. Anything that detoxifies the body will be helpful in strengthening the third eye chakra.

 

  1. Seventh Chakra, Sanskrit name: Sahasrara- at the crown of the head and corresponds with the pineal gland. This is a thousand-petal lotus and is the seat of the upper kundalini or urdhva kundalini. This is known as Shiva kundalini. When Shakti kundalini from the root meets with Shiva Kundalini in the crown, the practitioner experiences extreme states of bliss, the highest knowledge, and has an enlightenment experience.

There is no bija manta here and in the texts that I have seen, this area is very secret and not mentioned much beyond speculation. My basic understanding is that this is the place we connect to our individual with the cosmic consciousness. The sound I associate here is all sounds tightly woven together so much that there is no description that I can replicate. The silent sound of vibration. Anytime your bring your awareness to this area, you are doing a great amount of good to your sahasrara/crown chakra.

 

 

Kundalini

One of the most taboo, esoteric and unfortunately misunderstood concepts is that of kundalini. Upon research on this topic, I learned that the word kundalini appeared for the first time in the 7th century in a Tantrik text in Kashmir.

What you need to know:

Your body is electric. There are power centers in the body and 2 main ones we work with in yoga. One in the base of the spine (Kundalini Shakti) and one in the crown (Kundalini Siva). If your kundalini yoga practice only emphasizes raising energy up to the crown, be aware that there needs to be an equal attention to bringing that energy down or disaster is likely. Just look at what happens in any system that favors one side over the other. Yoga practice works directly on energy and blowing a circuit is real. Balance is key.

 

Nadis 

Everything in the physical realm has an energetic or etheric double. No thing that we see with our eyes is without an energetic component. This concept pervades all existence in life. There are said to be 72,000 nadis in the pranic sheath and three of which we place great attention. The central channel, or sushumna nadi, and the two nadis on either side, ida and pingala.

Ida:

  • Left brain
  • Chandra/Moon
  • Cooling

Pingala:

  • Right brain
  • Surya/Sun
  • Healing

Many of the aspects of a yoga practice aim to purify these nadis which allow more energy to move in, out, through and around the way it moves in its expanded state. Pranayama/breathing practices are extremely powerful and potent methods for bringing wholeness to your energy, body, and entire life. This topic is vast and I highly recommend researching before implementing a practice. Two safe and effective practices are kapalabhati and anuloma viloma which are beneficial for balancing and purifying ida and pingala.

“We often come to a practice like yoga feeling inadequate and looking for a way to get better, right, healed, or fixed. But you are not broken or wrong and having this be the foundation of your practice will only lead to more proof to your original belief. We practice yoga to get closer to embodying the truth of existence and beginning with this at your starting point will be a far greater ally in your journey. The power/energy that created us, is still us. It didn’t make us and then run off to some distant place where it can laugh at, judge and punish us.”